An Anthology

This is a collection of my poetry over the course of the years. It is mostly written chronologically, encapsulating love, life, death, the divine, twin flames, mysticism, politics, the world, singularity, and wisdom teachings. They are written out of inspiration and love. They tie in with the memoir I wrote about my life. I hope you enjoy it.

Till We Die

The endless cycle

Till you and I both die

But we have

In this life and many lives

You and I different lives

Different drives

The eternal struggle you and I

It won't ever end

Too far along now

Because I am you, you am I

We've seen it all

Each other's minds

At this stage in the game might as well not lie

I just want to know your story, your mind

Different than mine

Who says I need to love you

Just be anything

Let it unwind, divine

Poets sent my messages across time

Well now you and I, the others online

They don't see our divine lines

Pulled across by time

I knew when you hit me

It wasn't just another guy

My love can be strong, but I assure it's for you

I don't know where it's going or who you are

But your soul is mine

Breath

If I breathed the same time as you

If I read those Rumi poems not to her but to you

If I let the magic work all day and night

All chakras aligned

Not asking to be saved from you

Not your protection

Just the breath consistently through me

So you can be at peace too

Not drain you

What we've done so many times

I'd need you and her

Your brother is the same as her

Hearing him that night

All your talks

I don't mind, just need to breathe through mine

And not shrug to the crown

Don't be a clown

Just let her drown you

But still have control

See her and have the same in any other.

Allow it all

If it's meant, then she'll try

You don't have to worry

Just focus on the inside and ascension

If it clears and feels right, please her, but keep your wits

I'm meant to be with you

But you question every line

Mind body soul

Each other's hearts broken over time

Till we're both worn out

I don't know

But I'll keep thinking the divine

Of you

No matter how cunning you are

Your nature

And mine

Whatever anymore

It's something to think about over time

Tasting flight and how I felt touched down

Keep rockin

Sensations of the divine

I thought I felt it before

But that was something else

The idea you had of me

I'll let you hold on

Till the end of time

You saw my pictures and lives

You appreciated who I was

And in this relationship it's mine to show you

I'll show the love you see

Falling in love digitally

But not the simple kind

You see you and I

With our games and digital lives growing up

I'll remember the kid in you

I love you

In life we always forget who we are

The idea will still be

As long as you don't idealize me

Just like you said to me in Vietnam

The enlightened man can still have doubts you see

It's still able to be

What you saw in me

You are my all

Family and You

Feeling it with you

Whatever it is and will be

Not like you or I knew

Cold now and just letting time pass on through

You know this part of it

Knowledge and I had nothing to do

Continuing to expand for you

You can count those fallen before you

I wouldn't be just another

You know my father and mother

They're gone and to be a lover to you

What each girl wants and is true

Your presence and guidance

Is mine too

How I could be perfect to you

How this chose us, I haven't a clue

Your aura and mine, brilliant glow

Heal me heal you

From the pain you don't show

Non-duality but to a higher degree

So long as I don't let myself bleed

Remembering the deja Vu

You know I thought it was just another guy to you

But this is so new

What a story it is

The magic still has me in a noose

Lilith created by God they say

But still a stranger to me anyway

This level was so high it was tough for me to see 

Just escape now the hell and locked feelings inside of me

Make me who I am

Clear and translucent

Poetry in motion

Not static but chosen

Too Much

Feelings swamped

Dealings done

Moving on

Feeling wrong

But then I'm strong

Drift your mind

Into mine

Sweat it all

Starting small

Not my queen

Not your king

You know we are

But with your falls

Then we come

Back to start

Sweat it all

Clear it all

Hot and fine

It's divine

You may see

But into me

We can be

Together and apart

Let's start smart

No more searching

Intertwine

Show another side

Visions

People like to trip off me

Your vision of beauty

Seeing past the ethnicity

Religious old me

My head to the east

Why we seek peace

If I was together with you

I bet war would cease

Visions of you and me

I never thought of my destiny 

Perhaps you as me

You never played me

Heart warmer less cold

I wonder if I will ever grow old

See that song they all say

Why did things come this way

Rape me they'd see

It grows old these days

Tired and distraught

I'm missing the climax

To this plot

Hey come as you are

I don't bite

Your words melt

My tired old eyes

Be my guide

I used to be everyone else’s guide

Opposites Attract

Bring me to the center of your attention

You know opposites attract

Like an angel falling to my death trap

You came in when I needed

Before everyone else did

So here's another story

Your beauty I always thought you were of me

You knew everything about me

How did I attract your beauty?

Your wings encouraged me to sing

Better with my kind

But they aren't really

You flew before everyone else did

Dreamed before all the others

Well here I am in your plane

Need to switch another lane

Feels like my mind is always driving

On robot autopilot

Here's my ode to you

These meds don't balance my mood

Only make me more chaotic and confused

I'm out of news and muses

We didn't care about Arab or Jew

Just you in these new views

Just join along the ride

That's all I ask

Manifest Destiny

Manifest destiny

Godspeed godspeed

Wars I used to conquer with my mind

Now I've gone blind

Poisoned by another me

The other one who laughs so callously 

Cold war just digging ore

Wars for oil we need more soil

Pilgrim man need pilgrim land

Tired of sitting here so idly

You remind of me of the man I was

A Sufi nomad stained with old blood

Something they all forgot

And laugh at what I got

But I used to have it all

Still I'd stand tall

Lands and all I did my own conquest

But now everyone does the same

I feel so lame still not fully tamed

I never did well in chess games

I see what he did there

Crazy worlds

You're my only mirror

Who needs others

Low

Down and out

Not feeling so proud

Need to shout aloud

That I needed you in these times

Growing tires burning my clothes

I'd burn my whole life to the ground

Just as long as we see each other around

Flying above the ground

What happened to my life what now

I need a little empathy

To see these situations that enter me

Winner inner me

Singing desperately 

Sharing with negativity

Redeliver me

Burdensome old me

The Chariot

I heard you wrote a song about my mind

You said it's fine

I heard you'd cry

Our time we had

Learning as we had

I wish I knew you better

Other than a bio and letter

I'll see you next time here

Giver of love stay on fire

I see why now

More and more

I see everyday

Never tire

You neither

I've done so much

I got a chip as a wire

But I won't hand on a wire

And I don't idolize

Just idle eyes

Waiting for you and mine time to drop

Wish I could take you out to shop

And I'd shop

Put it in a dream

They've done everything damn else

Communication

Key to our success

I remember when your machine met mine

I'll see you soon enough

What a trip it will be

You on stage

Singing about me

Friends and Grins

Funny friends and funny grins

I learnt of more abuse again

From the time I had a bend

And the reaction that ensue

Dead spirits and past relatives I commune

From times when I was kicking the ball

To times when it was assault

And my guides helped resolve

I earned an A

Virtual reality consumed my brain

Of two loves gone astray

To a woman who somehow knew what to say

And every fault line

In my wrecking mind

And a beam from away

Shined directly my way

And said it will all be okay

Humanity's only an experiment anyway

Along with all the

Psychologists in your brain

That say

I'm discovering a new way

If I want to love and take care

I go to the darkest parts of my lair

Keeps me up all night

All pain in sight

I forgot when I was young

That all the pain was an illusion for truth

Know it all seems to real

Everyone knows my deal

But now i know

Everything that has been taken

From my soul

Desert Solitude

Sonoran sun and dreams of what has begun

I find too much but say to little

I try to express but secrets to remain hidden

Of old stories and misplaced visions

The cacti absorb my fumes and set me anew

Each walk closer to a few

But so many distant faces and remnant places

On what could be possible for us

But we enjoy to fight and laugh

Fly high on all our maps

But sometimes I am stuck below

In the netherworld of many souls

I only reverse what has been bestowed

So much disconnect between the wind

And my soul

Too many enhancements not enough dances

I found comfort in my invisible world

So do the others

Why we want to keep it our secret

But then it gets out of control

So I don't know your world

But I know the sonoran sun

And the creatures that inhabit

Guiding me of shapeshifting holograms

Secrets I attack

The creatures reflect

What consumes me

Nature soothes me

But I am so caught up in

One destructive dance

Music in My Heart

I grew up listening to odd tunes

One out of every

I remember it was diverse

Now I'm mixing genres it hurts

They thought you could express some words

Although they weren't yours

You found soothing notes

You see why it created resent

A story that may be told

How someone you met sometime

Changed your life

If I would eventually become this way

Now I'm caught and stumble

I flew around and joined with many

Now I seek anonymity

But this invisible realm for eternity

What lies behind the veil

Magic to no avail

Heaven or hell it's a tale

I tried to please them all

What they all inspired

I can't tell if I'm tired or alive

All music makes me wise

To different parts of life

Never thought everyone would listen

I really had no mission

Only to discover what it meant to sing again

When I never had the chance

I hope others forgive

The life I have lived

I hope we see the differences enough

To respect what we have in common

So an untold poem

About a rock songs that were chosen

To be sung by some

Myself being one

I cheated death before I had begun

Now I can't stick to one world

I have too much to see

In everyone's world

What's next

Only that I wish

A few stay out

Of my line of sight

Brotherly Love

I grew up with the guys

Life became hell once I moved sights

To world different from mine

I said why oh why

So shy and quiet

One day another 

Wondered what it would be like to step on his own

I said why are you telling me to do this

Just keep quiet it will all be over

I shouted out in pain turned to laughter

To mirror the others in the background

I was bruised and abused

Spine was weakened too

I long forgot about you

But see why I had issues with the others too

Now they have me questioning my views

My manhood and orientation too

I wasn't expecting it to happen

I was only trying to fit in, as dumb as it sounds

Saying you're this and you're that

Spinal hits I felt much later in life

As a young man when death became my life

I was born again

When these other afflictions mirrored my plight

You abusing more than twice

Eternal cycles

Until one leaves it all

Another dark set of rules

Do what we tell you too

We have power

Let's pretend to be them

He thinks it is all a part of him

Underworld

Digital underworld 

Mixed with my physical world

Finding it hard it seems

To relate to the youth I see

But am I so different from you?

Consumed by devices like you

Remember my words jot them down

Have you also seen the worse

So satanically abused

Kind of like you

Treat others the way you have been treated

More comfortable in my notepad

I wrote for you

About all the lives I've had

Dreaming like I'm mad

You should dream with me too 

Funny it seems I'm stuck in rewind

Introspection keeps me blind

Lost without a voice

Until I discovered someone else's words

Burned out bum

Until rehab became my gun

Failed at suicide more than a few 

I was a scandal in the news

I hope for new views

Compose notes like you

Tread on water lightly

Walk on but I'm not him

Soul

Seeing you helped my soul

To where I thought I belonged to one

And where we had begun

With you exploring the world better than they had done

Your empathetic views

Helping me end old news

And realize what had been done by more than a few

To know the roots of you

And when I'm not seen as a child

And not view you as celebrities

They think it made me feel important

Well no I never did and never started the dialogue

How many of you in your groups

Haunting my dreams too

When I would rather see myself alone

No dolls or stones to throw

Thinking now I'm a puppet in this matrix

I get locked up in prisons

And no one hears the pains from it

It will always be safe for you

To stop it I don't know how

This plague but I am happier today

Let me run my own way

It's called not looking down on someone

For what they have and don't have yet

I don't fit in your ways

I have cried so much in space

This invisible space and void

I don't know what my mind does

But that doesn't mean to put me in jails

I'm this human sacrifice

Who wonders why he cries

I wont view you as different now

I never did

I hope you can see me as enough to the same

A human with his own feelings and pain

I know you may have your own

I can never know

Maybe I am missing something

But why do my own thoughts

Go to other souls

Seeing Doubles

Seeing doubles again

And remembering when

I once sympathized

And earned some stripes

Now I know why, the reasons for that

And I saw you in those walls

Before I became this doll

Apologies and all

In those four walls, I saw more dolls

Saying I saw through your lies

Your eye I was never blind

So I heard A rumor when I moved on

And it wasn't long, that this ego grew tall

I became toxic, when I once was cautious

And I know why you felt that way

When I became that way

And that time it was sometimes I

But we learn that we leave eyes blind

Remembering the green space and Earth

Had some cool words

Then I became red, cause I didn't have much

Given these thoughts and words that weren't mine

I was the swine

Populating mind's

And there were these doubles of me

Telling the word what someone who isn't me thinks

But I left and became my own

At least I had thought

Everyone has their own plot

But I need no secret shots

Saw more of what you do

My friends only shared my corrupt cross

I tried to destroy your plans

Left to another land

It took some time and couldn't erase

What was done

Landed in these bins more than once